Frustrations ...

Many frustrating issues are on my mind right now. Frustrations with people and events are driving me crazy. Beginning to think people who are in my life don't want to stay in my life as they are choosing to push me to the outside, while saying they want to work on certain issues but never deliver. These same people tend to think they are the only people who are busy or who have a life. I understand we are all busy, but I am tired of always having to do the "dirty" work and made out to be the "bad guy". As for events that frustration comes from the same people who don't seem to want to work on any issues. I am in the process of planning a get together for a dear friend whom I've know for six years and recently accepted her first "big time" job since completing her bachelor's and master's degrees. I sent out information of wanting to do this event and asking for input and dates from those invited. A few people responded so I put together a couple of dates and no one decided to say they couldn't make it until this week. Now this event is 3 weeks away and everyone is backing out on it. So you can imagine my frustrations right now. Sorry to ramble on about nothing. A better post will be coming soon, I promise.

Well, it's been awhile since I last posted and I figured I should update everyone - 2 people on what's been going on. So here goes!

Andrew and I went down to Columbus for a few days in early June. We attended the Ohio High School Boy's Baseball tournament games. It was a lot of baseball, rain, sun, amazing food, and fun. We were also able to spend a few evenings with my Aunt and Uncle who live in Columbus and I am very thankful for Andrew in making that possible.

We also have gone on a few "camping" trips to the camper my family has in Andover, Ohio. Both times we have been tested on many levels due to being so busy out there and never enough time to relax with each other. In the end I believe it has made us stronger and we both realize where we need to be and what needs done. Andrew is very helpful and is never "afraid" to lend a helping hand even if he doesn't know what he is doing. I admit that I am very independent so it has taken me some time to let someone else in to help.

Cedar Point was one Saturday as well. I have never had so much fun with a group at an amusement park. I went as Andrew's guest for his company picnic. I did ride the coasters (some - left a few out lol) and I was happy to see others weren't afraid to sit out on those same coasters for the exact same reasons. I was never made to feel guilty or bad that I wasn't riding the few that I wasn't going on. It was very nice to have people in same mindset as my own for a change. lol I had a blast and was excited that Andrew invited me.

On July 10 we celebrated out 6 month anniversary. Some may say that it's corny, but we don't care. It was a lot of fun and exciting to hit this "milestone" together. We went to Steak on a Stone in Copley and then returned to his parents house to change and headed to the Shreve Homecoming. We met up with one of Andrew's best friends; Kory and his girlfriend, Brittney. Andrew's hometown feels a lot like my hometown in the sense we couldn't go a step without running into someone he knew. lol Gotta love it - and I DO!

Over all things are great with Andrew and I. We have been spending some time together and I can't imagine not spending time with him. I look forward to being able to see him, even if it is for a few hours and we are just talking on the couch watching one of our favorite t.v. shows.

Work is going well too. As much as I need a change, I realize it is a job for the time being and the hours and money is there. I haven't given up the search yet, even though some days it seems as if I need too. I am honestly thankful to have such a "rock" in my life, who can make me smile, calm my nerves, and set me straight. :-)

25 and all that goes with it!

Wow! What a week that I have had. I was scheduled to work upwards of 55 hours this past week, but due to a few other obligations by the parents it was knocked down a bit. At first I was upset with it, but then realized it was for the best as I was starting to feel over worked/run down and getting sick. I am feeling a lot better so I am not sure if I was coming down with a cold or allergies.

Anyways, Thursday, May 20, 2010 I officially hit my mid twenties. I am not too sure how I feel about this, but not like I can do anything about it, right. ;-) I am in a whole new "age bracket"! As of now it really hasn't hit me like I thought it would, but then again it is still "fresh". lol

Thursday I worked until 3:30 and when I got home I really wanted to do something to celebrate, but Andrew was going to go to a baseball game (totally cool with that), my friend Danielle was working late, and so was my friend Nicole. Andrew ended up calling me once he got off work and told me he was on his way to Wal-Mart and we started talking about our respective days. Mean while he had to get off the phone to go into Wal-Mart and I decided I was just going to order a pizza, catch up on some television, and do a couple loads of laundry. Andrew called me back about 15 minutes later and we continued our conversation. He then proceeded to say "Oh crap! I can't find my phone charger. I think I left it on your patio the other day." I then told him that I thought he was crazy and that if he had it probably wasn't any good. Andrew asked if I would please check to make sure, so the awesome girlfriend that I am headed to the patio door. As I get ready to open the door I see Andrew in the parking lot talking to me on the phone. I lit up like a fire cracker, dropped the phone, ran down five flights of stairs (barefoot) out into the parking lot and just jumped into his arms. I was incredibly surprised and not expecting to see him at all since it was a week day and we had plans to go to the "Jake" on Friday. We ended up going to see the movie "Date Night", which was hilarious. We had been trying to see that movie for a few weeks now and our schedules would not allow. After the movie we ordered a pizza from Pizza Hut, went back to my apartment and put my present together. He bought me an AMAZING card and a multi-media storage unit to house my DVDs. Over all it was a great night and I am incredibly thankful to have such a wonderful man in my life. :-)

Friday to celebrate my birthday we; (Andrew, great friends Danielle, and Cyndi, and their boyfriends; Peter and Chris) went down to the "Jake" to watch the Indians take on the Cinci"nasty" Reds. It was a lot of fun! We had great seats and were sheltered from the rain. After the game there were fireworks, which it was my first time seeing them from the "Jake". After we left the stadium the night was still young so we all headed down to the Winking Lizard. One of my all time favorite restaurants. Great food, company of friends, and Mr. Wonderful. I couldn't have asked for a better time. It was great to be with amazing people.

All in all I look forward to what the year of 25 will bring. :-)

Exhaused ... Yet Happy!

Wow! What can I say except that exhaustion has definitely hit me, and hit me hard. No, I am not working 40+ hours during the week; well at least not yet, but it will be pretty close within the upcoming weeks. I don't look at what I do as the most exhausting thing out there, but it does take a toll on one's mind and body. Oh well, time is money, right?

My weekend was low key, but perfect - well perfect in the low key sense. On Friday I went to see Judson Laipply who is the creator of "Evolution of a Dance", and he is an inspirational/motivational speaker. Ursuline College was putting on the event in part of "Big Fun Friday", it was a successful event and a lot of fun was had. I then went to watch Lauren and Chris play softball. They ended up winning with a score of 16-4. On Saturday I drove to Conneaut to pick up Amanda and I stopped to see my grandmother and to visit my grandfather's grave. It was different being back in town, but within time it will get better - I hope. I ended up getting back to Solon, right before I was to work at 6:00. Great night with some awesome kids. After work Andrew came up when he was finished with his poker game. I am proud to say he pulled out a big win and took the top spot! Congratulations! Sunday was a weird day. I was in a funk for awhile and my words and actions weren't really the best. In the end though I was glad I was able to talk to Andrew, and get things figured out. I am so lucky to have such an amazing, wonderful, supportive, and encouraging boyfriend in my life. Hopefully I don't do anything to screw it up. He makes me smile in the greatest ways, I can't stay mad or frustrated at him for very long because he makes me laugh so much, and he has this way of making everything right again. :-)

Well, I am off - Time to get some sleep!

God Bless

One step forward, two steps backwards ...

This week has been busy, but not as busy as the weeks to come. My schedule has picked up and I am working more hours and with more people. Don't get me wrong I LOVE working and it keeps me moving. The issue I have is working on the weekends. I am more than willing to work Monday-Friday from dawn to dusk. Yet, I am human and have a life as well, so for the most part I would love to keep my weekends free for myself and those in my life. I don't mind working the occasional Saturday, as we all need a little break from the everyday pace, but I am about to be 25 years old; when is it my time to start my life, find who I want to be in this world and what I want to do? I know what I do is short term (at least in my eyes), because I didn't go to school for five years to watch children who are not mine. Yes, I love what I do and it's good money, but I want something more constant. I also have a few things as to why I won't leave right now either, so I am happy I at least have work. I am happy over all with where my life is heading. I am just stressed out that every time I try to do something "great" for myself it is not liked by others. I don't know I suppose it's just life ...

In Four Years ...

Wow! I have recently come back to blogging after over four years! A lot has changed over the years, so I will give you the most recent updates.

I graduated in August from Kent State University (Main Campus) with a degree in Sport Administration with a minor in Business. Graduation was a whirl wind of an experience. It also flew by very quickly. Five years in the making and in about two hours it's over! The good thing is that I have a piece of paper which will serve as a great reference for the rest of my life (I hope)!

In October, I took on a Nanny position outside of Cleveland, OH. I moved into my apartment, and things have been looking up ever since. I recently took on another family who have two children. I am also starting with another family later this week. The children I have been working with are amazing, and so are the families. I would do anything for these children, and at times, I think of them as my own. It's amazing how they can lift you up and tug at your heart strings. Mind you this is not my dream job (making a living watching other people's children), but with the economy as of late, it has been hard to find my "dream job", or a better paying job using my B.S. degree. As for now, it pays the bills and keeps me happy.

November was an awesome start to the end of the year. I met a great guy named; Andrew. Well our first official meeting was December 5, 2009. We went to see the movie "The Blind Side" (amazing movie - but I am probably a bit partial since I am a huge sports fan!), we also went to dinner at Applebee's. After a couple months of dating we decided to make it official on January 10, 2010. Since the start of our talking and meeting, everything has been AMAZING! (Again, I am probably pretty partial as well). Andrew is a Computer Programmer, and works for a great company in Northeast Ohio. He too is into sports, religion, laughing and having a great time. We have clicked on many different levels.

The end of March was a hard time for myself and my family. On March 30, 2010 my grandfather passed away, due to Kidney Failure. He and my grandmother would have been married 58 years this summer, he was 77 (78 this summer as well). It has been very rough on the family in many ways, but I know the power of love and our father above will get us through it. I miss him everyday, but I know he is no longer in pain and is able to be with four of his five siblings, parents, in-laws and great friends.

Over all, things have been AMAZING! I hold out for many more great adventures to come.

God Bless!